Change (Alongside It's Irony)

Basically I've been going through some old blog posts(still can't believe it's been four years since I made this blog...2014, what a year) and an old journal I've had for approximately five years, and it's kind of hard not to notice the different transitions your personality takes over the years. From the more regular and fluctuating opinions on love (nearly bi-yearly at this point to be honest), to the more important and useful changes in opinions. For example: How to live, what's important to achieve and how to think about other people. One thing that has managed to stay pretty intact through out the years is my cynical demeanour, I guess it's within my purest of essence to be somewhat cynical, but not overly cynical that I turn goth I assume. Back to the main point, going through old posts and thoughts there were moments when I would think "Hmm, younger me was on to something; I wonder what went wrong that made me change my mind", but ironically if younger me had the chance to go through my thoughts as of now, he'd probably be like "Wow, future me is on to something; how can I be so blind to truth that is so clearly right in front of me". I mean for me to be who I am today, younger me must have had to agreed with the thoughts I have now in order to make younger me transition to me now.. If you understand what I mean. It's just really funny to me how I can never truly feel like present me is fully right, I guess you can never actually be fully right, maybe pure ideal unblemished right isn't even a real thing, maybe it is just an idea that could only exist in Plato's world of forms. This post isn't my attempt to tell you change is part of life and you need to embrace it with open hands, instead it's more of me wanting you, and me of course, to back track a few things and see if we can make ourselves somewhat better by integrating our past selves better ideas into the now. The fact is frankly, like all things in life, change is not always the best thing and may even be detrimental if just accepted misguidedly; take the butterfly for example, you may think that the change from a caterpillar to a butterfly is a beautiful example of change, but at the end of the day it sacrifices it's ability to eat, to mate, which means it starves to death.. to me that's a pretty negative change. That example is kind of going off point, the point I'm trying to push forward is that sometimes you need to take a step back and reevaluate, because even though you may not notice it so obviously, past you can be as different from you, as a stranger is, and it's always beneficial to take as much info as you can from everyone you may encounter (which includes past you). Personally, I want to move back a few steps in how I think of people, instead of assuming everyone has ulterior motives, I want to incorporate younger me's view that no one really wants to hurt anyone and everyone has a reason for any pain they cause others. Reading what I wrote just now, makes me feel younger me was really really really... lacking in intelligence and a good bit naive, but I guess it is true to an extent (a ridiculously miniscule extent 😒) and I suppose it is probably a lot better for me to give people the benefit of the doubt.

So yea, that's my two cents on the matter. What do you think? disagree? agree? You can share your two cents in the comments below, you know add 2+2 that's 4 minus 1 that's 3... quick cents.Yea...